Val's Narrative

i wonder how deadly the seven deadly sins are

and how much death could possibly hurt 

and how bad hell could possibly be 

and how badly Lust could possibly be punished there 

–

because if i dropped dead 

every time i thought about you, 

the impure thoughts overtaking my mind

i think i would’ve died a long time ago

–

and i know it’s a sin 

to view your platonic affections

as anything more than that

but my heart can’t seem to understand that

–

and so i wonder how deadly the seven deadly sins are

and how much torture i could possibly endure

and how unforgiving lucifer could possibly be

and how badly Envy could possibly be punished there 

–

because the torture i would have to put up with in hell

couldn’t possibly be worse than watching you with her

and i can’t help but hate the beautiful girl

because she gets the looks my heart can’t help but think it deserves

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and i know it’s a sin

to look at her and want her skin sewed on mine 

and to be Greedy for everything she is, that i’m not

because i’m not enough 

not enough for you

–

and i know it’s a sin

to be a Glutton for you 

but you’re an addictive sedative to me

everytime you touch me, i can’t help

but slip into tranquility 

and then yearn for more 

–

and so i wonder how deadly the seven deadly sins are

and how much fire could possibly burn 

and how relentless demons could possibly be 

and how badly Pride could possibly be punished there 

–

because nothing could burn more 

than the anger that seeps through me

whenever i think about your passive rejections 

because why am i not good enough for you? 

–

and i know it’s a sin

to think myself better than others 

and to think i could treat you better 

and to think my face would compliment yours 

more than hers ever could 

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and so i wonder how deadly the seven deadly sins are 

but i don’t think i’ll have to for long 

because the Wrath i feel towards myself 

for loving you, is deadly in itself 

–

i’m killing myself, while i stay

foolishly hopeful, waiting for you. 

commiting sins, in vain

for you 

–

and there’s no doubt that 

my willingness, to be sent to hell

for your love, 

disgusts even lucifer himself

–

but love is relentless, 

and it doesn’t care how willing I am

to dance with lucifer

and have my soul

burn to ashes, 

all for your love 

–

because you would never 

submit yourself 

to eternal torture

for me 

–

now, i’ve become Slothful

unmoving 

timeless 

because i don’t know what to do after you

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and the sins are deadly 

i’ve come to find 

lucifer is always unforgiving 

and hell’s flames loves to storch my skin to ashes 

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but at least it feels better than loving you